I was so desperate about my weight and my failure to lose it that I was considering getting a gastric bypass. That is the surgery where they make your stomach the size of a walnut and limit the amount of food you can eat at one time. It is very dangerous and is to only be used as a last resort. That’s where I found myself. My doctors agreed that the only way I could lose any significant amount of weight was to have this surgery and it was my only hope of ever being normal. The more research I did, the more I was convinced it was my only option, too.
Even after learning about all the possible complications, although it was extremely depressing to think of how awful my life could be if something went wrong, even though it was possible that I could DIE, I still saw it as my only option. I went through all the steps to qualify for the surgery. Every appointment that passed which brought me closer to the surgery stood as confirmation that it was my only hope.